Thank you all.

Alhamdulillah.

All the heartbreaks, the stress and the fatigue,

they all paid off.

:)

Catch Up

Okay, haven't updated in a while.

Sorry. I'm busy at the moment.

I'll be back soon lovelies.

<3

Forever alone?

i think so. haha.

Being born on the 20th day of a month,

it's natural for me to have a wide imagination.

So, I ship myself with the Kwon Jiyong of BIGBANG.

problem?

"Being any kind of happy is better than being miserable"

-Leah Clearwater (Breaking Dawn)-

Never gonna let go.

I'm so damn proud of 2NE1!

They won Song of The Year and Best Vocal Performance.

They also had a smoking performance stage. But I'm most proud of CL.

And this is why. She shared a stage with Will.I.Am and Apl.De.Ap.

AND BIGBANG. They won Best Music Video. They absolutely deserve this. Try pulling of a Black and White MV in one shot. Yes, one.

Honestly, I didn't think they would win anything,

BUT THEY DID.

YG FAMILY FTW!

Calm down, ELFs.

Okay, so last night was the Mnet Asian Music Awards. And Super Junior won Best Male Group, Singapore's Choice and Album of The Year.

WHOPDEEDOO.

The ELFs were having a rage on Twitter because they weren't nominated in Song of The Year. They came the with the reason: Mnet knows if SJ were nominated, SJ would win no doubt.

PUH-LEASE.

You seriously think Mr. Simple is waaay better than I AM THE BEST?

I AM THE BEST is an inspirational song that gives confidence and assurance to people, especially girls. It deserves Song of The Year, arasso?

I'm just saying, ELFs need to calm down. I mean winning 3 top awards is enough already right? Besides, they had a seriously hot performance stage.

Bored to death.

I'm actually watching make up tutorials on YouTube.

Yup, that's how bored I am.

Maybe I'll try it.

>:D

2PM HANDS UP TOUR

IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME.

hah, you believed me. i didn't go, okay?

I'm so jealous of Jes Lin and Sarah.

Okay, mostly Jes Lin.

SHE FREAKING MET THEM AND GOT A FREAKING HIGH-5 FROM THEM.

I'm not jealous because I'm a 2PM fan and I didn't get a chance to meet them. I'm jealous because, Jes Lin got to meet them.

Still don't get it?

Okay, here I am,

waiting and praying for BIGBANG to come, ever since I fell for them.

And when news of GD&TOP and Seungri were coming,

and that it was before PMR ansd I couldn't go

I felt like throwing a chair at somebody.

The point is,

Jes Lin met her idol.

And for as long as I have lived, I hadn't me any of mine.

BIGBANG, I'm waiting. I have RM600 saved for you, no kidding.

If you feel lost.

Kwon Jiyong.

There are no words to describe how much I love him.

I'm proud of you, G.

Till infinity.

Big Bang is here to stay. There is no going away.

Questions

1. Why did you tell me that?
2. Why did you fucking lead me on?
3. Why wasn't it you who told me?

4. Why are you acting as if nothing's wrong?

5. Why her?

Why aren't you answering me?

You're a fucking coward.

Be brave.

I want you to say it straight to my face.

I want you to talk to me.

To talk it out with me.

I want the friendship back, without any awkwardness.

There's so many things I want you to straighten things out,

to answer my questions.

And trust me, there are loads.

Please, answer me.

Meanwhile in KDU

Excited for Form 4?

Hell no.

Common answer?

Maybe, but with uncommon reasons.

Form 4 is just another year.

No big difference from the years we had before.

Well, maybe one,

we'll be changing classes according to the streams we take.

What's the big deal you ask?

Imagine being in the same class for 3 years,

with the same classmates,

united, undivided.

It'll be hard to imagine separating.

It's no easier for me either.

I laugh at the 'dilemmas' you might go through next year.

They're not real. And there's no need going all stuck up for it.

If you're fast, you'll get what I mean.

KDU FTW.

Crazy Doings

If, I said,

I wanted to

audition for YG,

what would you say?

The main reason for this is simple,

MUSIC IS LIFE.

and there are not many opportunities in Malaysia.

I believe I have something to show,

something worth listening to.

And my Form 4 year will be spent proving that not only to myself, but also to other people.

Irynna, hwaiting.

:)

Say B. I. G. to the BANG!

THIS.

AND THIS.

I CAN'T. I JUST CAN'T.

These beautiful people beat BRITNEY SPEARS,

made LADY GAGA turn her whole chair to look at them,

and also had JEREMY SCOTT stand up and cheer!

This means means so much to them. To us, VIPs.

Why?

We made Kwon Jiyong smile.

The priceless smile that we all miss.

And returned Kang Daesung to his normal smiling self.

The smiling angel we all love.

This is the speech that the Kwon Leader made after the win.

BIG BANG UNTIL WHENEVER <3

BIG BANG IS BACK!

This. Just this picture made my day.

I screamed around the house.

I couldn't stop trembling.

It was such great news.

It may not mean a single fuck to you,

but it means the world to me.

That feeling you get when you see your favourite band, TOGETHER.

Difference in the BIG 3

First of all, the entertainment company I hate the most,

SM TOWN

NUMBER 1: What the shit? You call your co-workers a town?

NUMBER 2: Can't you see how fake they look in the above picture? They have to stick to their clean image so strictly.

NUMBER 3: TOO MANY LEGAL ISSUES. How many hot idols have they lost? You count 'em.

Next victim, the entertainment company that's just too boring despite their hotness.

JYP NATION

NUMBER 1: Here we go again. Calling your co-workers a nation is even worse than a town. Does Park Jin Young want to be a president so bad he had to make his own country?

NUMBER 2: Again, clear fakeness in the picture. Why did you even have to rent out a shooting site to take a picture? Why must it be so formal?

NUMBER 3: Where's the personality in these hot people? Are they robots or something?

Last and never least,

YG FAMILY

NUMBER 1: FAMILY. FAMILY. See that? It's a family.

NUMBER 2: Oh, don't you just love that picture? They're clearly not fake and having the time of their lives with each other, the YG Family.

NUMBER 3: They're pure talent. YG doesn't recruit them for their faces, body or anything. They recruit them for their talent.

You see my point? Love the idols for who they are. Not what they have to be seen as.

If you think otherwise, well, too bad. It's my blog, my thoughts. So screw you.

Nurul Nabilah Hazali, we think alike :P

nuna hazali

Most people don't get what's so great about YG.

Well, let me ask you, what the heck is so great about 13 guys sharing the stage?

sorry, ELFs.

Anyways, that day, during the Open School Carnival,

I sat with Nuna and,

WHOAAAA,

how we spazzed (fangirl) about YG is just FTW.

I can't do this in school cuz everyone else loves either 2PM, Super Junior, SHINee, U-Kiss

or some other things.

I'm the only VIP and proud of it.

SO, that's why meeting up with Nuna was the highlight of the day for me.

I found out we have the exact same thinking. And bias.

GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE.

I'm freaking gonna kidnap you if there's a BIGBANG concert next year.

So, expect me. >:D

We have to continue! ;)

Gureumeul gareugo dagaon G-DRAGON!

Screw Agnes Monica.

As you all know, BIGBANG was up against Agnes Monica, Jay Chou, Jane Zhang, Goitre and Exile for the MTV EMA 2011 in the Best Asia Pacific Act.

And guess what,

BIGBANG WON.

Expected?

to me, it was.

And today's newspaper, Panca Indera (I'm stating to hate it) had an article that read;

"Agnes Tewas Undian" in the Indonesian news section. In it, it said that she wanted to represent Indonesia but lost to BIGBANG (boohoo). Yeah, that's kinda of it.

Then I realised, why post news about Agnes losing when you could post about BIGBANG winning? Makes sense?

Think about it.

My loyalties is to YG

From my point of view, YG idols aren't afraid to be real.

I'm not gonna explain what I mean further.

If you guys take this statement the wrong way then, too bad.

I love everything YG from Yang Hyun Suk,

to the awesome 5, Big Bang;

to these badass females, 2NE1;

to Kpop god, SE7EN;

heck, even Teddy!

YGFAMILY FTW

I can't even.

This is too flawless.

Bash BIGBANG, and you'll find death knocking.

one word.

just one word.

and you'll never see the light of another day,

i can't take haters. i can't take lies basically.

so, if you want to live a very happy and rainbow-filled life,

BACK OFF.

arasso?

My thoughts on GD's Marijuana Case

FUCK EVERYONE. FUCK THEM. FUCK. FUCK THEM.

WHO THE HELL BROUGHT THIS CASE UP TO SUFACE AGAIN?

IT WAS FUCKING CLOSED IN JUNE.

YOU HEAR ME?

JUNE.

Here's article from Panca Indera:

Bahana Rokok Dadah

Anggota kumpulan Big Bang, G-Dragon baru-baru inin dilaporkan telah ditangkap pihak berkuasa atas kesalahan mengambil dadah.

Pendakwarnya, Kim Hwejong telah mengesahkan bahawa penyanyi tersebut berada di bawah pengaruh dadah sewaktu tangkapan dibuat.

Menurut pihak polis, G-Dragon ditankap pada Mei bulan lalu dan selepas siasatan dijalankan melalui ujian air kencing, dia didapati berada di bawah pengaruh dadah.

Dalam pada itu, G-Dragon juga mengaku telah mengambil dadah di sebuah kelab sewaktu berada di Jepun.

Malah, dalam satu kenyataan, dia mendakwa telah menghisap rokok 'unik' yang diberikan oleh seorang kenalan di kelab tersebut sebelum menyedari terdapat kandungan dadah di dalamnya.

BUNCH OF FUCKED UP LIES. COULD YOU GET YOUR FACTS STRAIGHT?

NUMBER 1 ; He's not any ordinary member. HE'S THE GOD DAMN TALENTED LEADER FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

NUMBER 2: He wasn't under the influence when he was caught. Heck, he wasn't caught at all! YG sent him for a test.

NUMBER 3: It wasn't May. It was June.

NUMBER 4: The marijuana wasn't found from the urine test. It was found from the hair test.

NUMBER 5: It was 'seorang kenalan.' It was a Japanese fan.

And now, GD&TOP can't debut in Japan, yet. They're (Japanese) accusing GD of blaming the Japanese when he himself should know not to take unusual gifts from strangers.

Firstly, he accepted the gift out of courtesy since he said he was a fan.

Second, did anyone even think of how that so-called fan even owned a cigarette of marijuana? Seriously, Japan, sort out your priorities.

#staystrongGD

BIG BANG IS VIP!

It's been 4 months since I went crazy for Big Bang.

Let me take you through the history of me turning into a VIP.

2010

January - I asked Nuna about her Master&Mosquito name. She said she wanted 'Heart' & 'Breaker', in honour of G-Dragon's solo album. At the time, I hated K-pop so I didn't care. Looking back, I realized; this was the first time I heard the Kwon Leader's name.

February - A melody was stuck in my head. I asked Hannan and Nuna what it was. They said it was Big Bang's Haru Haru. But honestly, at the time, I've never heard it before and wonder how it got stuck in my head.

March - I sat at the Cyber Kiosk with Hannan. She was going through some gossip site for K-pop. The top news at the time was G-Dragon's Shine A Light Concert 'Sex Scene'. I watched the video with her and later on criticizing K-pop like shit. Now, I know what really happened.

April - I was in the dorm on my own and I caught myself singing;

I'm so sorry but I love you, da geojitmal

How the hell did that happen? Again, I don't know.

2011

February - Beautiful Hangover was the first Big Bang video I watched. I watched it on K-pop Hits on Astro Hitz. The song was stuck in my head during Class Test and I was tapping my foot to it throughout the whole test. When I got into the van, I showed Nabilah the guy that wouldn't leave my head and asked her who he is. She said, "That's the adorable Kwon Jiyong."

June - I heard about Daesung and pitied him. I couldn't stop thinking about what he must be doing, how he's coping and stuff like that. I just couldn't. I was watching MTV Hits and Love Song came up. I couldn't take my eyes off them at all. I was even more touched when Nuna toldme GD wrote the song himself. I admit, I have a soft spot for singers who write their own song. I Googled the song, and actually found a site that showed what GD meant by the lyrics. And again, the song was stuck in my head.

So, I started stalking them. It took me only one video to make me realize, I'm not a SHAWOL anymore but a full-on VIP.

And that video was Haru Haru.

Lies was next. And I almost screamed when I realized it was the song I suddenly sang the year before.

This Love made me fall for Kwon Jiyong even more. The first that popped into my head when I heard this was, "GD, you're a God damn talented Korean hot stuff."

NOW, I'm a proud VIP.

enough said.

Best. Birthday. EVER.

HELL YEAH!

I'M FINALLY OFFICIALLY FIFTEEN!

MUAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

It's a really big deal to me, okay? :D
During my party, my cousins flew in.

Abg. Firdaus from Perth, Abg. Amy from Seremban, Abg. Fairol from Miri and Kak Fiza from Sibu.

Coincidence?

Seriously, it was.

That's why I love it so much.

I had only a few hours with them until they have to fly back to their universities.

So, 22nd July was short but memorable.

<3

Loving 3 Mozart

you see this?

this was when Joanna Tan won Best Vocal and Best Showmanship.

Finale to Rolling in The Deep

Now, introducing 3 Mozart's Band.

our very cool female bassist, Celina Lau

weird-faced guitarist Amer Asyraf

multi-talented, Chiam Sheng Wei

just Collin Chang

and of course, awesome singer, Joanna Tan

29th June was a really memorable day.

There were of course, heartbreaks, unsastifaction, joy and victory.

But the most important is

UNITY.

We had each other that day, we had 3 Mozart.

That's what really matters.

We might have little time together,

but,

instead of counting the days,

why don't we have more of 29th June?

More of togetherness.

3M, I really love you.

enough said :')

Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang

Nanny McPhee arrives to help a harried young mother who is trying to run the family farm while her husband is away at war, though she uses her magic to teach the woman's children and their two spoiled cousins five new lessons. Which every lesson they learned, Nanny McPhee gets prettier.

what i tell ya? ;)

• Lesson #1: To stop fighting - Upper wart disappears
• Lesson #2: To share - Lower wart disappears
• Lesson #3: To work together - Unibrow disappears
• Lesson #4: To be brave - Hair changes from gray to brown
• Lesson #5: To have faith - Snaggle tooth disappears

I absolutely love this story. Being a heart of stone, I don't cry often. (Don't believe me? Well, I watched Titanic without crying. Beat that :P) But I did for this movie, it's absolutely touching.

Of Life and Growing Apart

Change of winds faster than a blink.

Growing dilemmas that modify us, never noticed till we replay memories.

Confusion towards truth, changes and this self.

Problems without solutions.

Questions without answers.

Different worlds, withstanding different smiles.

Once ordered to go away,

this bullet-proof glass of the heart's, shattered to a million pieces at last.

Forever standing my ground, defiant to words that sound,

"It's all lies."

ZOO NEGARA

haha,

my little baby so cute :3

Love ya, Wooyoungie.

there was no freaggin sheeps in zoo negara

=.=

if they go endangered one day, don't say i didn't warn you.

PHEW,

I'm so damn tired now.

I went with my cousins,

Kak Long, Abg. Ashraf, Ayie, Ariel.

So that makes six excited kids running in the zoo.

xD

I don't get why people have to stare at me.

Yes, they were staring.

HELLO?

You're in the zoo, look at the freaking animals while they still exist!

I'm a local who speaks English.

What's so alien about that?

LOOK, IT'S BABOONS!

fyi, he's cuter than any other baboon

yes, that includes YOU

Boyfriend

All SIX of you?

OK!

xD

They just debut on 26th May with their song, Boyfriend.

Yes, they're band's name is also Boyfriend.

There are twins on this band!

(the one holding I'm and Boy)

The Very Special Newspaper

LOOK AT THIS!

MUAHAHA! I FOUND IT!

It was actually two weeks ago that I remembered I had this.

It was only today I started looking for it.

I wanted go through the old newspaper one by one.

So, I simply started from any part of the huge stack.

The first one I held was already the right one!

Kim Hyun Joong's magic?

Or is it because it's his birthday?

Anyways, happy birthday to the

perfectionist Baek Seung Jo,

four dimensional Yoon Ji Hoo,

SS501's leader Kim Hyun Joong!

생일축하합니다 김현종 오빠!!

^^

Fly high, reach the sky

****This post is dedicated to all PMR candidates of 2011.****

Look, each member of SHINee is trying to say something.

Onew: I respect you.

Taemin: You need my smile to go through hard times.

Jonghyun: You! You're gonna make it.

Minho: I believe in you.

Key: Hold my hand and we'll fly towards you dream.

This amazing song is very inspiring. Even though it's an OST, it's my favourite SHINee song. It's in the playlist below. My favourite line from each of the members is sure to inspire you too.

Onew: Unveil the dreams hidden in your heart and believe

Jonghyun: Even if I’m breathless, obviously I’ll regret it if I stop

Minho: We will sail through the pain in no time

Key: When you fall and when times are hard, When you hate yourself for putting on a mask, Be yourself!

Taemin: Capture those dreams with your hand and fly far away

PMR is exactly four months from now. This is the least I could do; burn your spirits up. I wish you all the best. I know that straight As is important to everyone. Good luck!

Boys Over Flowers (꽃보다 男子)

It was almost two years ago when I first heard the name of this drama.

Hana Yori Dangu.

Those times, no one could ever stop talking about it!

Every overnight day, they would go, "I need to get home now! I've got to see Hana Yori Dangu!"

Because I learned slight Japanese, I knew 'hana' was flower.

But, at that time, I was a hardcore Jonas fan, so, I couldn't care less.

I would roll my eyes and say,"Hmph. I don;t get these Japanese or Korean lovers"

Look at me now.

=.=

Since it's the holidays, I decided to watch one last Korean drama before I start studying like mad. This one came to mind.

I don't regret it!

It's a drama filled with troubled relationships, whether friendship, family ties and even love. Starting off with introducing what will happen to the victims of F4's wrath, it ended by having the F4 members and Geum Jan Di standing side by side watching the sunset by the beach.

Through out the drama, all I could think of was hoping that Jan Di ends up with Ji Hoo. But sadly, she accepts only her one true love.

If you ask me, I would have picked Ji Hoo!! One, because it's freaking Kim Hyun Joong for goodness sakes! Two, he was there for Jan Di from the beginning. They both helped each other realise love and the meaning of life.

Song Woo Bin by Kim Joon

I absolutely LOVE his character. He's really really friendly and would use his own hands to take down anyone who hurts his friends. He's a bit embarrassed by the job his dad does but doesn't stress it out much. His main purpose in F4 is to return them to their roots when they get lost. To me, he best suits Jae Kyung. They both would have made the cutest and bubbliest couple ever.

So Ee Jung by Kim Bum

I LOVE THIS CUTIE! He might look cold and mean and be proud of his status as a famous player, he actually has a really sweet side to him. He has a talent in pottery but in the middle of the drama, he breaks his hand due to a club fight. He loses his way but, with Ga Eul's help, he finds his way back and continues pottery with his feet. Yes, he deserves to be with Ga Eul. It's the only couple I agree on!

Yoon Ji Hoo by Kim Hyun Joong

OMO, I would marry him from the beginning! His talented in music. Due to a childhood accident where his parents where killed, he is the most down to earth character in the drama. He was always there for Jan Di and usually wears white. He went on one date with her but realises that she seemed distant. Through out the drama, he referred himself as the fireman and was unselfish for Jan Di. He loves her, but she loves Goo Jun Pyo. I wonder how he could withstand not having Jan Di. He would have been perfect with Jan Di.

Goo Jun Pyo by Lee Min Ho

KYAA, i hate him. He's the only F4 I hate. Self-centered and wants everything his way. He should have ended up with Jang Yumi. They both have the same character. Absolute PABO.